i'm so sorry dear...
i really cant do this anymore.
i think we should not seeing each other anymore.
i tired being forgotten..
i didnt see u for past 2 months.
and everytime we met, u always sulks n angry at me.
i didnt what to do..
but now i do
though it's hard n painful..i got to do it..

I'm sad..

I'm sad today...

y? d usual reason...

he lied to me over & over again...

dear diary

dear diary...

am so sad today...why o why he must make me sad?
he just arrived frm work today n first thing he did was angry at me..
i didnt see him for 2 weeks for god sake..y he must angry at me?
i called him because i'm worried something happened to him yet he's so pissed..
this not the first time he doing that to me..last month he did d same..
i tried not to be upset but it's hard when someone u missed so much,being so mean to you..
he changed..i know n realized..not the same i guy i fall in love b4..
he become dis stranger that come come out of nowhere..
i love him n tried to ignore dis strange habit but lately..it become a hard for him to vent his frustration to me.
i always cried because i dunno wat to do..
i feel we r growing apart each day..
his ex-gf found him on FB..
i'm not jealous but he seems disillusion by his ex-gf..
he didn't know how to say no to his ex..
in fact, he spends more time with her more than me on the Internet..
tell me diary..am i stupid for not seeing d reality here?
i guess i am..some time in the future..i'll move on from him..from this relationship..
but not now..not yet..
i'll give it d last chance..i'll fight for it..
but, if i'm losing, i'll not regret it..i've fought n lost..
i know i fought n taking chances yet i lost..
May God gives me strength to face my future.Amen.

I am broken heart..

Dear Diary..

I'm sorry for not writing to you..
I'm busy..Yes i know it's a lame excuse but it's true..
hmmmm...

lately i felt so depressed..
yes..depressed.
y? because of my life, my works, my parents, my bf, my studies my responsibility..
i feel so overwhelmed by all of that..that i feel like quitting..
i can't handled it anymore..
they more i did the more i'm expected to give out my best..
i'm sorry..i just cant take it..
there are time i wish i can curl to sleep n never wake up again..
it's depressing thoughts i know & i shouldnt even think of it...
but i cant help it..
last wednesday was my bday but i felt so sad..
i can pretend to be happy..but i just couldnt do it
everyone is picking on me lately & keep on breaking my heart
i guess i just i'm tired playing self defense..
anw, i gtg..
wish me luck ya?

So longgggggg..

Fuhhhh..it's so long since my last post here..
Sorry guys..Dunno if anyone reading my blog but i'm apologizing anyway..
Life's has been like very hectic very busy very chaotic too..
Too sum up it all..i've 3 job changes in one year period..Phewwww !
I'll tell u guys more later coz right now i need to reg for new sem @ varsity..
Yes, i'm pursuing my studies, get a new job, living in my suitcase n try to juggle my life at the same time..
All's in d day's life my friends..
Oh ya..I met sum one too..
I'll tell more but now i got to go..
Byeee..

Honey

Happy birthday Sayang
I want 2 be d first one 2 say it 2 u..
i want u 2 u know..
dat u'll always in heart no matter wat..
i still loved u though u hurt me..
je t'aime VD

Confession
by Frantisek Halas (1901 - 1949)

Touched by all that love is
I draw closer toward you
Saddened by all that love is
I run from you

Surprised by all that love is
I remain alert in stillness
Hurt by all that love is
I yearn for tenderness

Defeated by all that love is
at the truthful mouth of the night
Forsaken by all that love is
I will grow toward you.
_________________

miserable

i feel sad n miserable..
missing sum1 i hate d most & loved d most..
y oh y just i 4get him?
he's nothing..
i kept telling myself dat..
but d truth is..
he's sumthing..sum1 in my heart
i cant denied dat
i miss u Honeeeyyyyyyyyy.........
i wish u r next to me..
but u'll keep hurting me..over n over again.. :'(
*sad*